Okay so I have had a really rough week. It started on Monday when I came down with vertigo. I have had vertigo off and on since 2004 and lately have had it mostly in check. Sunday evening my son and I enjoyed a favorite hobby of ours – we attended the WWE Live Pay Per View “Clash of Champions.” Here we are in the height of our glory (we had awesome seats and ever got to high 5 a few wrestlers)
So you see we were surrounded by thousands of people on Sunday and it is my guess that one of them had a tremendous, hideous cold which when I get them, turn into vertigo.
And it sure did.
Now my vertigo is the kind where the room spins uncontrollably, I throw up continuously, I have to miss work because I cannot drive anywhere, I had to cancel all of my small groups and counseling for this week, oh and I throw up and the room spins violently if I didn’t mention that. And it never stops. It just keeps spinning!
So I finally got to the doctor who gives me steroid shots in my sinuses and then I have to wait about a week or two for that to take effect. Today is the best I have been in almost a week and that is because the room only spins a little and I can keep food down again! Yay!!! It’s the little things that are exciting when you at the bottom of your well in life.
Now I had a ton of things I wanted to do this week and a lot of promises I had to break because of this sickness. I felt horrible about each person I had to let down. To me, each of these people were counting on me to be there for them, and I simply could not be. To me, I failed.
So I sat down this morning and opened my Bible and I asked God what I was supposed to learn from this. I told God I was mad, I was upset, I was angry, I was impatient, I felt like I was wasting precious time, and I asked Him why on Earth this was happening now and why was He not doing something about it!!!
This may seem like the ranting of a three year old, but I hope what you see is that what I was doing was just being real with God and opening up all of my true feelings and hurts to Him.
And what did He do?
He first brought me to 1 Timothy 6:6: “Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment”
God was telling me, “I hear you. I know what your going through. But remember that I am in charge and not you. My ways are beyond your comprehension so stop asking why because I will never tell you when you couldn’t understand anyway. Just remain godly and content. Your still alive right? You still have Me, your family, your friends, I could go on and on. Stop being selfish. This is happening for a reason. Now if you want to know why, turn to Matthew 11:28.”
So I turned to Matthew 11:28 and it reads, “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
God was telling me, “You are doing way too much and you need to slow down. So I am slowing you down. You will rest until I say so. How about we spend some quality time together? You cannot save the world you know. I know you want to try but that’s My job. Now pick up your Bible and let’s talk.”
Man, I love God!! Direct, to the point, and always true!
So I’m resting for a while. No videos will be posted for a couple of weeks nor any podcasts, but the posts will keep coming as usual.
Thanks God for slowing me down for my own good. I hear you loud and clear!
Pastor Brad Komgenick